The Endless Abyss

Simple and Clean by Utada Hikaru

2006-07-19T20:18:00.000+08:00

You're giving me too many things
Lately you're all I need
You smiled at me and said,

Don't get me wrong I love you
But does that mean I have to meet your father?
When we are older you'll understand
What I meant when I said "No,
I don't think life is quite that simple"

When you walk away
You don't hear me say please
Oh baby, don't go
Simple and clean is the way that you're making me feel tonight
It's hard to let it go

The daily things that keep us all busy
Are confusing me
That's when you came to me and said,

Wish I could prove I love you
But does that mean I have to walk on water?
When we are older you'll understand
It's enough when I say so
And maybe some things are that simple

Hold me
Whatever lies beyond this morning
Is a little later on
Regardless of warnings the future doesn't scare me at all
Nothing's like before

2006-06-06T20:25:00.000+08:00

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First Love (English) by Utada Hikaru

2006-05-25T16:23:00.000+08:00

Once in a while
You are in my mind
I think about the days that we had
And i dream that these would all come back to me
If only you knew every moment in time
Nothing goes on in my heart
Just like your memories
How I want here to be with you
Once more

You will always gonna be the one
And you should know
How I wish I could have never let you go
Come into my life again
Oh, don't say no
You will always gonna be the one in my life
So true, I believe i can never find
Somebody like you
my first love

Once in awhile
Your are in my dreams
I can feel the warmth of your embrace
And I pray that it will all come back to me
If only you knew every moment in time
Nothing goes on in my heart
Just like your memories
And how I want here to be with you
Once more
yah yah yah

You will always be inside my heart
And you should know
How I wish I could have never let you go
Come into my life again
Please don't say no
Now and forever you are still the one
In my heart
So true, I believe I could never find
Somebody like you
My first love
oh oh

You will always gonna be the one
And you should know
How I wish I could have never let you go
Come into my life again
Oh, don't say no
You will always gonna be the one
So true, I believe I could never find
Now and forever

*I love this song so much. Reminds me of my first love. I don't think I have one, though.

College Courses

2006-04-27T14:38:00.000+08:00

These past weeks, I've been thinking about what courses I would choose in college. Then, I saw
May's post about college courses she would take. So, here's mine..

U.P. Diliman

-BA History
-BA Linguistics
-BA Philosophy
-BA European Languages
-BA English and Comparative Literature
-BA/BS Psychology
-BS Biology
-BS Economics
-BS Business Economics
-BS Business Administration
-BS Business and Accountancy

A.D.M.U. (Ateneo)

-AB History
-AB Literature (English)
-AB Humanities
-Modern Languages (French/German/Latin)
-AB Philosophy
-BFA Creative Writing
-BFA Information Design
-BS Management/BS Management Honors
-BS Communications Technology Management
-BS Biology
-AB Economics/AB Economics Honors/AB Management Economics
-AB Psychology
-AB European Studies (Business or International Relations Track)

So, I'm gonna go for BA History then BS Business Economics!! Then a Master's degree on both courses. But I also want to take BS Business/BS Management. If possible, I want to take all the courses I listed above. haha..

Past and Future Summer Days

2006-04-21T19:32:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. April 7, pumunta kaming Bolinao, Pangasinan para pumunta sa isang family reunion. Buti na lng dala ko ang Ipod ko dahil wala akong magawa sa bahay ng pinsan ng daddy ko. Ang nakakainis pa, ang kukulit ng mga bata (ung mga ibang pinsan at syempre ung isa kong kapatid). Tapos, ung mga ibang pinsan at tito ko ay naglalaro naman ng basketball sa labas habang ung iba naman ay nanonood sa isang pinsan ko na naglalaro ng Warcraft sa laptop ng tito ko. Then, nung gabi na (mga 6pm), pumunta na kami sa venue ng reunion. Parang siyang js prom pero nga lng puro matatanda ung kasali. As usual, boring kasi puro matatanda lng ang nagkakaintindihan.. So, nakikinig lng ulit ako sa aking Ipod, naglalaro ng hide and seek ung mga pinsan (ung mga bata) ko, nakaupo at nananaginip ung mga ibang pinsan. Nung kainan na, nauna na kaming malalaki (teenagers or watever) sa buffet table. hmmm.. Masarap naman ung pagkain.. Lechon, bbq, ribs, chicken, chicken, may parang soup na puno ng gulay, macaroni, salad, hmmm..Anu pa ba..? Bsta un na un. Tapos, may mga sayaw parang sa prom pero matatanda, at tango/chacha/foxtrot(?) ung mga sinasayaw. Ang gagaling nga eh.. Pero boring.. Hay.. Mahal ko talaga ang aking Ipod.. Anyway, hindi na namin tinapos ung mga programs, blah blah.. Bumalik na ulit kami sa malaking bahay ng pinsan ng daddy at dun kami matutulog (lahat ng tito, tita, pinsan sa Hermosa side).. Ang galing nga eh.. nagkasya.. kaya nga malaki ung bahay eh.. hmmm.. Kinabukasan, ganun pa rin ang nangyari.. Pero umalis na kami nung tanghali na. Ung ibang tito ko pumuntang Ilocos (probinsya namin), tapos kami at ung natira pumuntang Hundred Islands. Sightseeing.. Tapos nagdiving kami! Yeah! un lng ung masayang part na nangyari sa Pangasinan. First time ko lng nun, pero mabilis naman ako natuto. Ang saya nga eh..! 'nga pala, bago kami umalis sa Bolinao, nag-beach muna kami dun sa Boracay-like beach kasi white sand pero kami lng ung tao dun. Dumating na kami sa Manila mga 1am na 'ata..

April 14, bumisita kami sa 14 na simbahan sa loob ng NCR. Masaya naman kasi maganda at ang lalaki ng mga simbahan pero ang init (super). Sacrifice daw namin un dahil Holy Week nga. Approx. 6 hrs. namin ginawa 'to..

April 15, isa sa mga masasayang araw ko dahil pupunta kaming Subic kasama naman ung mga tito, tita, pinsan sa middle initial side. Compared sa Hermosa side, hinde boring kasama ung mga kamag-anak ko sa side na 'to. 6am kami umalis, ung mga lalaki dun sa Adventure namin tapos ung mga babae na sa Starex ng tito ko. hmmm.. ung na sa NLEX na kami, nagstop-over kami dun sa may Shell, KFC, Burger King, etc. Kumain muna kami ng breakfast dun sa KFC, tapos bago ulit sumakay sa mga SUV, pumunta muna kami Starbucks para sa mga drinks namin habang na sa sasakyan kami. Then tumuloy ulit kami papuntang Subic. Tinago ko na lng ung Ipod ko sa bag kasi may mp3 player naman dun sa Adventure, tapos nagpatugtog ung pinsan ko ng mga kanta ng Metallica kaya ang ingay dun sa sasakyan pero masaya. hmmm.. Mga 10am dumating na kami sa Subic tapos hinanap namin ung resort na malapit sa Ocean Adv. Unfortunately, ang daming tao kaya 'di na kami tumuloy dun. Kaya nagOcean Adv. muna kami, nanood lng ng mga dolphin, seals na gumagawa ng tricks. Tapos humawak kami sa mga dolphins, ewan ko lng kung magkano un pero client naman ng Dream ung Ocean Adv. eh, kaya.. bsta un. Sayang pwede pala magswimming kasama ung mga dolphins pero mahal daw bayad. Pagkatapos nun, naghanap ulit kami ng iba png resort. Grabe, mga apat na resort na ung napuntahan namin pero punuan ng mga tao. 12nn na kami nakahanap ng resort na kakaunti lng tao, dun sa White Rock(s?) kami tumuloy. Maganda, malinis, at malaki naman ung resort. Kumuha kami ng cottage/hut tapos hinanap na ng iba ung shower room, ung iba naman naglalagay ng sunblock, ung isa kong tito umalis muna at bumili ng mga pagkain sa Mcdo para sa lunch, ako naman nagpalit lng ng damit na png beach kasi ang init, bale nag "sleeveless tshirt" na lng ako. Ang tindi ng init kaya 'di muna ako nagswimming nakinig na lng ako sa Ipod ko habang hinihintay ko ung pagkain habang ung iba na sa beach na. After about 1hr. dumating na rin ung pagkain, kumuha agad ako bago maubusan, ung nagpahena (parang tattoo thing) muna, ung iba umahon at kumain, at ung iba na sa beach pa rin. hmmm.. Nakinig sa Ipod at natulog lng 'ata ung ginawa ko dun. 3pm nagswimming na rin ako dahil 'di na mainit, ung dalawa kong pinsan nagrent ng kayak, at ung isa naman kumuha ng volleyball pero soccer naman ung nilaro. Pagtapos ng isang oras, nagdiving ulit kami (pero lima lng ung sumama)! Ang daming coral reef at mga isda, at ang malinis naman ung tubig compared sa Manila bay. 2nd time ko un! 'di pa rin ako sanay. Pero astig ng summer ngaun. Hinde pa nagtatapos ung kasayahan.. pagkatapos ng diving, nagrent kami ng jetski! hmmm.. 2k+ ata un eh. Kaya take turns lng kami.. Ang daya nga eh.. sa likod lng ako. Sarap ng hangin tapos talon ng talon sa mga waves. 6pm, pumunta na kami sa shower room, nagbihis, at umalis na. Matutulog sana ako dun sa sasakyan pero grabe ung music ng Metallica. Pumunta muna kami dun sa magandang malaking bahay ng tita ko sa Bulacan at kumain ng dinner dun bago tumuloy sa Manila. 12mn, dito na kami sa bahay.

April 18, pumunta si Drazen dito sa bahay para magTekken at hiramin ung FFVII:AC at CD ng Incubus. Akala ko nung una talo ako (1-5) pero sa huli ako pa rin panalo (7-0). haha.. So, 8-5 ung final score namin.

April 19, tinapos ko na ung Kingdom Hearts II.

April 22, bday ng daddy ko.. Punta kami sa isang restaurant.. d ko alam kung saan.. sa Fridays 'ata ulit kami.

May 01, bday naman ni Agnes at pupunta naman kami sa Antique kasama ulit ung mga sumama sa Subic.

"I hate having nothing to do. It gets me thinking too much."

2006-04-21T18:37:00.000+08:00

Time finished: approx. 1am
Hours played: approx. 30hrs. (April 3-19)

I've just finished KH2, the day before yesterday (April 19). Right now, I'm trying Proud mode (harder level). So..? Who cares 'bout that..? hmmm..

Trip

2006-04-14T16:31:00.000+08:00

Yey..! Punta kami Subic bukas. hehe.. hmmm.. Anu naman kaya gagawin namin dun..? First time ko lng kasi pumunta dun. haha.. Anyway, that's all for now. 'alang kwenta..

Kingdom Hearts

2006-04-12T09:59:00.000+08:00

"I've been having these weird thoughts lately, like is any of this real or not?"

"A scattered dream thats like a far-off memory. A far-off memory that's like a scattered dream. I want to line the pieces up- yours and mine."

"Friends, same heart. No heart, no see friends. No heart, no friends."

"This world has been connected. Tied to the darkness... soon to be completely eclipsed. There is so very much to learn. You understand so little. A meaningless effort. One who knows nothing can understand nothing."

"All worlds begin in darkness, and all so end. The heart is no different. Darkness sprouts within it, grows, consumes it. Such is its nature. In the end, every heart returns to the darkness whence it came. You see, darkness is the heart's true essence."

"Hearts are power. Nothingness...is eternal."

"Behold the endless abyss! Within lies the heart of all worlds: Kingdom Hearts! Look as hard as you are able. You'll not find even the smallest glimmer of light. From these dark depths are all hearts born. Even yours. Darkness conquers all worlds!"

"Don't steep yourself in darkness too long. The Heartless consume the careless."

"The ingredients for a heart: Pulse. Emotion. Terror. Fear. Hope and despair. Mix them all together, and we have a heart!"

"The heart may be weak, and sometimes it may even give in. But I've learned that deep down, there's a light that never goes out!"

"Every light must fade, every heart must return to darkness!"

"No one lives in the slums because they want to. It's like this train. It can't run except where its rails take it."

"Reality isn't so kind. Everything doesn't work out the way you want it to. That's why... As long as you don’t get your hopes up, you can take anything... You feel less pain."

"Right and wrong are not what separate us and our enemies. It's our different standpoints, our perspectives that separate us. Both sides blame one another. There's no good or bad side. Just 2 sides holding different views."

"I hate having nothing to do. It gets me thinking too much."

"Why do people depend on each other? In the end you're on your own. I'm fine by myself now. I have all the skills I need to survive. I'm not a child anymore..."

"I don't know anything. I'm confused. I don't want to depend on anyone. How can I do that? Someone tell me... Someone? So I'll end up depending on others after all..."

"It feels great to have friends who believe in you, and adults you can rely on."

"I don't want friends who won't be around tomorrow."

"Sharpshooters are loners by nature... We hone our instincts, pour our whole being in a single bullet. The pressure of the moment... An instant of tension... That's what... I have to face alone..."

"You've all heard this before. How life has infinite possibilities. I don't believe that one bit. There weren't many paths for me to choose. Sometimes, there would only be one. From the limited possibilities I faced, the choices I made have brought me this far. That's why I value the path I chose... I want to hold true to the path that had to be taken."

"Teamwork means staying out of my way."

"There are many worlds. But they share the same sky. One sky.. One destiny.."

"Kingdom Hearts... is light!"

Nah.. I just can't post anything. [Sigh..]

"In this country, you can't trust anyone but your family and friends."

Summer time!

2006-04-01T12:22:00.000+08:00

Para sa post na 'to gagamit ako ng tagalog dahil nagmamadali ako. haha..

So.. Tapos na ang 3rd yr life at 4th yr na tayo (tayo: batch o7) at siguro isang taon pa ay college na tayo. Pero, bakit parang nalulungkot ang lahat dahil tapos na ang school yr natin..? What's the big deal? Hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit. haha. Siguro dahil mamimiss natin ang 3rd life.. Yung mga kaibigan, kalokohan, at kung anu anu pa.. Pero makikita pa naman natin sila next school year..? Ewan. Masaya na ako dahil tapos na ang paghihirap. Makaka-relax na ako (kahit 2 months, ok na). Mamimiss ko lng ang mga tao na nagpasaya sa aking 3rd life.. haha. Pero wala na akong pakialam sa mga taong walang kwenta ("gago") nung mga oras na iyon.

Thanks sa Einstein III! esp:

Tropatan (Drazen, Kelvin, Selah) - Hindi ko makakalimutan ung mga pinagsamahan natin at ung mga naitulong niyo sa akin. Sana sa 4th year Tropatan pa rin! \m/

Zion - Dapat magkaklase pa rin tayo sa 4th year. haha.

Kim - Salamat sa mga kakulitan mo. haha.. wala lng. Basta salamat sa lahat ng nagawa mo.

Micah - Hindi ko makakalimutan ung lagi tayong magkatabi sa zoology. hehe.. Thanks for being a friend.

Sino pa ba..? hehe. Basta salamat sa lahat ng naging kaibigan ko. Rok on!

Syempre hindi ko makakalimutan ung mga naging kaibigan ko sa labas ng Einstein.

Agnes - Thanks for being a very nice friend. Kahit.. hmmm.. basta.. Thanks ulit!

Jen - Kahit hindi masyado tayo naging close.. hehe.

Hmmm...

Sorry naman sa mga nasaktan ko o kung anu man. haha..

Bakit nga ba ako magpopost ng ganito..? Hay...

Anyway, ito naman mga gagawin ko sa bakasyon:

--> matutong tumugtog ng gitara
--> tapusin ang nobelang ginagawa ko (ung bago)
--> maglaro
--> mag review para sa UPCAT?

"If you've got the poison I've got the remedy.."

Heartless

2006-03-21T23:00:00.000+08:00

"Heartless - devoid of compassion or feeling; pitiless; cruel"

This post is nothing.. I just want to clarify some things.

I'm a heartless person but not literally a "HEARTLESS". I'm not selfish, I'm not cruel, I don't lack compassion or feeling, and I'm not pitiless. (^_^)

I'm a heartless person cos' I have no heart.

I'm a heartless cos' I gave my heart to somebody else.

"Love is a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love."

Love Quotes

2006-03-07T19:02:00.000+08:00

I just can't post anything or I'm just really "busy" to post something meaningful. Actually, this post is for a friend of mine.

"A coward is incapable of exhibiting love; it is the prerogative of the brave"
"A man falls in love through his eyes, a woman through her ears"
"A man has only one escape from his old self: to see a different self-in the mirror of some woman's eyes"
"All, everything that I understand, I understand only because I love"
"The wounds of love can only be healed by the one who made them"
"A heart is not judged by how much you love, but by how much you are loved by others"
"At the touch of love, everyone becomes a poet"
"Death cannot stop true love. All it can do is delay it for a while"
"Gravitation is not responsible for people falling in love"
"Hate the sin and love the sinner"
"Hatred paralyzes life; love releases it. Hatred confuses life; love harmonizes it. Hatred darkens life; love illuminates it"
"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love"
"He who has never experienced hurt, cannot experience true love"
"How come we don't always know when love begins, but we always know when it ends?"
"I love you not only for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you"
"If I know what love is, it is because of you"
"If you love something let it go free. If it doesn't come back, you never had it. If it comes back, love it forever"
"Love: A term which has no meaning if defined"
"Love - a wildly misunderstood although highly desirable malfunction of the heart which weakens the brain, causes eyes to sparkle, cheeks to glow, blood pressure to rise and the lips to pucker"
"Love has no uttermost, as the stars have no number and the sea no rest"
"Love is a minefield. You take a step and get blown to pieces, put yourself back together again and stupidly take another step. I guess that's human nature. It hurts so much to be alone that we'd all rather blow up than be single."
"Love is as unproblematic as a vehicle. The only problems are the drivers, the passengers and the road"
"Love is as unproblematic as a vehicle. The only problems are the drivers, the passengers and the road"
"Love is like π -- natural, irrational, and very important"
"Love is loving what your lover loves"
"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday"
"Love not what you are, but what you may become"
"Men always want to be a woman's first love. Women like to be a man's last romance"
"Once a tear fell off my cheek and into the ocean, the day I find it will be the day I stop loving you"
"The heart has its reasons, of which reason knows nothing"
"The more you judge, the less you love"
"There is nothing more painful than seeing someone you love loving someone else. But there is nothing more rewarding than seeing two people you love loving each other"
"To him she seemed so beautiful, so seductive, so different from ordinary people, that he could not understand why no one was as disturbed as he by the clicking of her heels on the paving stones, why no one else's heart was wild with the breeze stirred by the sighs of her veils, why everyone did not go mad with the movements of her braid, the flight of her hands, the gold of her laughter. He had not missed a single one of her gestures, not one of the indications of her character, but he did not dare approach her for fear of destroying the spell"
"To love, for us men, is to clasp one woman with our arms, feeling that she lives and breathes just as we do, suffers as we do, thinks with us, loves with us, and, above all, sins with us"
"We waste time looking for the perfect lover, instead of creating the perfect love"
"Woman was created from the rib of man: Not from his head to be thought of only, nor from his hand to be owned, nor from his foot to be beneath, but from under his arm to be protected, from his side to be equal, and from his heart to be loved.."

---"Life is unfair."---

JS Prom Part II

2006-02-28T21:39:00.000+08:00

"The prom night is laden with significance and anxiety to many students about being invited, finding a date, what to wear, how much to spend, how to find the money on the night of this pinnacle event. Disillusionment with these aspects of prom night has led some groups of students to hold alternative events called anti-proms. On the other hand, some high school students feel the prom is the most romantic night of their lives. They may go in a group that includes a person they have known for years; other times, students just try to find a date that they like. Many find it to be just as fun to attend with friends, not worrying about the dating aspect of the prom."

The JS Promenade is a night that should be remembered (for me). But what are the things that made the JS Prom so special and so unforgettable..? For me, it is the beauty/glamor of the girls with their gowns and of course, the dance.

Girls that I can't forget cos' of their beauty during that night ^_^

Agnes - your gown was simple (wasn't expecting that) yet you're still beautiful (lagi naman eh.. kahit walang make-up. kahit hinde prom.)
Jen - i love the color (red) and style of your gown and of course, you're also beautiful and sexy ^_^
Rina - told you, you were beautiful but for me, no make up is more prettier
Lisette - weeeeee ang ganda-ganda niya nung prom. sayang hinde mo nakuha ung cinderella thingy. hehe.
Micah - simplicity but as usual sexy and beautiful
Selah - i hate to admit but you're also beautiful (only during that time) hahaha.. but sexy..? uhh.. hehe..
Kim - i love the color of your gown (sky blue) and you were like.. i dunno.. anyway, that's all. haha.. (of course, you're also beautiful and cute)
Darise - kakaiba mukha nito nung prom at may kamukha siyang artista nun.. ewan ko lng kung sino.. cute pa. hehe.

Dances I can't forget ^_^

Lisette - even though it wasn't that long.. i enjoyed it.. ^_^
Rina - ikaw 'ata ung may pinakamadaming times na naisayaw ko eh.. kahit makulit... masaya. haha..
TK - last dance
Kim - masarap kausap
Selah - i was forced to dance with her.. so, i won't forget it.. haha..
Micah - i dunno but until now i can't forget it.. i can't get it out of my head..

*all of the girls were beautiful and i can't also forget the other dances but the ones i mention were the best. \m/

"Thank You"

JS Prom

2006-02-27T22:06:00.000+08:00

Thanks to our crazy government, we have no classes today. However, I hope that this shit would end cos' a Martial Law would be terrible.

Anyway, about the JS Prom.. It was one of my ******* (hmmm.. is it..?) day or shall I say night , but it was INCOMPLETE. The venue was full of beautiful girls (I wasn't expecting that) and the teachers were dress up like teens (some of them). The procession was okay, some seniors walked like models and the muses were beautiful. On the other hand, the escorts were also good-looking. The food was not that good but I still enjoyed it (the grilled thingy was delicious). The cotillion dance was fun to watch and that's all I can I say. Then my favorite, the dancing part. The dance floor was wild (that's the hip-hop music part, which I didn't enjoyed) but when the music turned to a sentimental love song, the loudness was minimized and that's the time the girls pulled their own partners. I enjoyed that part [thanks rina, micah, lisette(nominated cinderella), kim, selah, TK, MG, emma, thea, xean, gabby, nikki etc.] even though, i didn't feel well that time.

I hope the next JS prom would be more... hmm.. fun..? And I also hope that EVERYBODY would be enjoying the night..

"My night is incomplete without YOU"

I'm truly very sorry po.

Exams and Projects [late]

2006-02-02T18:08:00.000+08:00

Lets talk about the recent periodic exam and projects. These things made me damn busy. That's why, I can't think of a new post. Anyway...

Jan. 18, 2006

English
- I didn't study at all 'cos I know that I can pass the exam. [passed] XD
Math
- The exam wasn't that hard. I took the exam seriously bec. I need to pass the exam to pass Math. [50-50]
A.P.
- I didn't take the exam seriously but the exam was not easy nor hard. [80-20]

Jan. 19, 2006

Physics
- I was expecting the exam to be a problem solving type (w/ multiple choice). So, I only studied some word problems and solutions, I didn't studied the important terms or concepts. But it turns out to be a "hard-full-of-concepts" test. [failed]
Adv. Stat.
- Honestly, the test was easy but it made confused and frustrated bec. of the wrong givens in some problems. Luckily, Mr. Estacio gave us a part 2 of the exam. [70-30]
MAPEH
- The test was a bit hard but I think it would be easy if I didn't concentrated that much on the other two subjects. [50-50]

Jan. 20, 2006

Chemistry
- I dunno... The test was also a bit hard. I only studied the Gas Laws (e.g. Boyle's Law, Charles' Law, etc..). Unfortunately, a few of them showed up in the test. But Mr. Diaz also gave us a part 2. [..?]
Filipino
- Another easy test. That's all.. [passed]
Research
- Nothing to study. Nothing to say. [..?]

ENGLISH "LES MISERABLES"
- YEAH! We got a grade of 99! Even though, I expected a lower grade, I'm just a soldier and our voices weren't that good as I expected. Our practices were worth it.

CHEMISTRY "CREATE-YOUR-OWN-PROBLEM" about Gas Laws
- Finished.

FILIPINO "Musical Play"
- Another musical play which we didn't practiced much. We got a grade of 92..?

MAPEH "VIDEO-MAKING"
- We're currently planning on it. Thanks to Maam Hermano, the deadline was moved to Monday. However, Im having a problem with the script and story.

"Goodbye exams. Hello projects"

Maria Clara.

2006-01-28T19:41:00.000+08:00

Sa panahon ng pananakop ng Espanya
Madaming mestisang babaeng(?) masaya
Ngunit isang babae ang tumatayo
Isang Pinay na ang ganda ay malayo.

Siya ay parang diyosa ng Pilipinas
Sinabing pinakamaganda ng Pinas
Ang kanyang mestisang balat ay parang ulap
Napagkamalang galing alapaap.

Subalit ngayon ay may minamahal na
Hindi sila maghihiwalay, sana(?)
Isang tamabalan na nakakainggit
Pati ako at siya ay naiinggit.

Nung una ay nagmamahalan ng lubos
Parang pagmamahalan na 'di nauubos
Kahit bata pa lang, sila'y nararapat
Ngayon ay magkasintahan silang tapat.

Nang tumagal mas tumindi ang pag-ibig
Ngunit nagkaroon ng problema ang ibig
Nagplano na sana magpakasal sila
Subalit ang excomulgado ang sala.

Nawala ang buhay at ganda ng dilag
Ang pag-ibig na matindi ay umilag
Ang pag-iyak ang naging pagdamdam niya
Nang tumagal ang damdamin 'di na kaya.

Nagkaroon ng isang sakit na lungkot(?)
Kahit ang pag-ngiti ay hindi masuot
Gamot man ay hindi mapigilan ang sakit
Hinahanap ang ibig na kaakit-akit.

Nang lumaon may panibagong umiibig
Kastilang ipinakilala ng amang bibig
Pero ang sakit ay hindi nawawala
Hinahanap ang ibig na nawawala.

Pinag-aagawan ng mga Kastila
Opisyal man o padreng nangungulila
At sa wakas nawala ang mga sala
Subalit ang pag-ibig ay winala.

Kawawang Maria Clara na maganda
Naging madre kahit hindi ito handa
Maria Clara, kagandahang iniinggit
Diyosa man o anghel, siya'y galing langit.

Random Thoughts.

2006-01-15T20:35:00.000+08:00

--> Madaming nagsasabi na kapag New Year, dapat magbagong buhay. Aba! Ang dami ngang nagbagong buhay (personality, or somethin' like that).
--> As far as I remember, I didn't encounter any New Year problems.
--> Oh! I did encounter one. Even though, it was somebody's problem.
--> Why do some people ask me the same question over and over..?
--> Always remeber, "Patience is a virtue".
--> "It is, after all, easier to make a beautiful dumb girl smart than to make an ugly smart girl beautiful." Yep, I agree with this saying. But in my situation, she is not only beautiful but also smart. So, no problem 'bout that.
--> "Everything has its beauty, but not everyone sees it." Well, here's my answer to a girl who asked me if she was beautiful.
--> "Don't judge a book by its cover." For someone who judges a book (a person) by its cover (face).
--> Malapit na ang periodical exam, wala pa rin ako sa mood.
--> Pero simula ngayon, mag-aaral na siguro ako.
--> Malapit na rin ang JS Prom, 'di pa rin ako handa.
--> Sana maging maayos at masaya ang Prom.
--> "Love is a fallacy."
--> "Love is a false idea."
--> "A man falls in love through his eyes, a woman through her ears."
--> "If you love something let it go free. If it doesn't come back, you never had it. If it comes back, love it forever." To a friend.
--> Thinking of a goddess near eternal sunshine.
--> Currently reading an article about fallacies.

"Sige lang... Sandal ka na at wag mong pipigilan. I-iyak mo lang ang lahat sa akin."

M.O.V.E.

2005-12-30T18:56:00.000+08:00

M.O.V.E., my fave Japanese band, I've just discovered it last week. The members are Yuri (Masuda Yuuri, vocals, center), Motsu (Segawa Mototaka, rap, left), and T-Kimura (Kimura Takashi, producer, right). According to some internet sites, this is the most famous Alternative Electro Rock'n Roll group in Japan. Fave songs:

Rage Your Dream
Blast My Desire
Angel Eyes
Blazin' Beat
Noizy Tribe
Romancing Train
Nobody Reason
Burning Dance
Dogfight
Gamble Rumble
Around the World
Over Drive
Break In 2 the Night

J-pop Artists

2005-12-30T14:49:00.000+08:00

Before the year ends, I would like to show you some of my fave things. This year, my fave music genre is J-pop or Japanese pop. Why? I dunno..? Even though, I'm not Japanese, J-pop isn't that famous, and some of it are old. But I think, it's because of the games I play (e.g. Final Fantasy, Kingdom Hearts) and watching anime. Or.. Is it because I'm always listening to it in my computer (I've downloaded tons of it) Or.. Is it because of influence..? Anyway, here are some J-pop artists:

Utada Hikaru

She's the one who sang my one of my favorite song, "Simple and Clean" or the Japanese version, "Hikari". Actually, that's the only song I knew from her, but thanks to my two friends, who introduced to me more of Utada's songs.

First Love
Final Distance
Sakura Drops
Devil Inside
Automatic
Passion (cool music video)

Megumi Hayashibara

She's not only a singer but also a voice actress (e.g. Neon Genesis Evangelion as Rei, Pokemon as Jessie, Shaman King as Anna, etc.).

Oversoul
Trust You
Northern Lights
Omokage
Kirameku Kakera

Kuraki Mai

Secret of My Heart (another favorite song)
Growing of My Heart
Winter Bells

Koda Kumi

All I know about her is that she sang two Final Fantasy X-2 songs.

Real Emotion
1000 no Kotoba or 1000 words

Naomi Tamura

Yuzurenai Negai or Unyielding Wish
Embracing the Light and Shadow

Did I forgot something..?

Christmas.

2005-12-28T08:39:00.000+08:00

Last Sunday was one of my worst (exag.) Christmas. Why? For the first time, we didn't have a Christmas party in our building. Our Noche Buena was only composed of two boxes of Pizza from Pizza Hut, a bucket of fried chicken from KFC, and baked macaroni, which my mom cooked (baked..?). It was also soooo boring that time. That's why I played some PS2 games the whole morning.

But there are three things that made my Christmas happy. First, my friends / classmates / schoolmates who greeted me "Merry Christmas". Second, the gifts I received. Lastly, my cousins who visited us b'coz that's time where we played PS2 games the whole time.

Here are the gifts I received:

Green Day's "American Idiot" Album from myself
The Calling's "Camino Palmero" Album from my dad
Kingdom Hearts OST CD from my friend
Final Fantasy VIII OST CD from my friend
an original NFS: Most Wanted PS2 game from my uncle
Multitap for PS2 from my uncle
PS2 controller from my uncle
T-shirt from my aunt and uncle

That's all for now.

Out.

2005-12-23T19:18:00.000+08:00

After a week spending my vacation in our house, I've finally gone to the mall(s). Actually, WE (family) went to the mall(s). It was 3pm, when we went to the "Podium" (near SM megamall). The things we did there were:

Instead of doing a normal parking, our driver and my dad decided to "use" (can't think of a term to use..?) a valet parking [cool~]
My mom bought gifts for my brothers and cousins in Toy Kingdom. Then, she went solo shopping for her clothes or something.
My dad went to a "Tower Records-like" shop (can't remember the name) to buy some DVDs/VCDs/CDs. I think he was there the whole time. He bought 2 DVDs and 4 music CDs, which includes The Calling's "Camino Palmero" album. [Yeah!]
I was also in Toy Kingdom (PS2/Games Section/whatever they call it), looking for some good PS2 games. After 15 mins. of walking back and forth, I also went to the "Tower Records-like" shop and I bought Green Day's "American Idiot" album.
As for my two brothers, they were just tailing me.

There were many foreigners at the Podium (British, Americans, etc.). It was also really cold in there. Anyway, after approx. two hrs., we left the Podium. The back of our "Mitsu-Adv." was really packed with different kinds of things we bought. But we're not yet finish with our shopping. We're still going to SM Megamall to buy some more and to eat. Here:

My mom bought a set of badminton racket for my two brothers.
I bought 4 PS2 games and a book from Powerbooks.
My dad went to Ace Hardware but didn't buy anything.
My two brothers were again tailing me.

After shopping, we ate at Max. The chicken there was really tasty. I really love that restaurant but my fave restaurant is still TGIF. After eating our dinner there, we went to Bio Research (pet shop) to buy some dog and hamster food. Then, we went home. It was a long tiring day, even though it was not long.

By the way, here are the PS2 games I bought:

1. Dragon Quest VIII (Square-Enix) Rating: 10/10

great graphics / sound
good gameplay / characters
buy this!

2. Sims 2 (EA/Maxis) Rating: 8/10

many add-ons
easy controls
unsatisfying graphics

3. Gran Turismo 4 (SCEA) Rating: 9/10 " The best driving model on the PS2; huge variety of cars, courses, and race types; one of the best-looking ps2 games ever." But Need for Speed: Most Wanted is best than best.

700+ cars to choose
great graphics
terrible controls (..?)

4. Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire (EA) Rating: 8/10

three-player cooperative play
satisfying graphics (good)
a short game (10+ levels)

Wishlist..?

2005-12-21T19:44:00.000+08:00

Most blogs I've seen have posts like this. So, why not..? [laughs] Even though some of it are impossible.

Things (must be ORIGINAL, hehe.):

brand new digicam/videocam
I-Pod (but my mom said that she would buy me one this Christmas) [Yeah!]
Kingdom Hearts II PS2 CD/DVD game (if available anywhere but Japan)
Kingdom Hearts OST CD
any Final Fantasy OST CD
any Anime OST CD
Laptop (my mom also said that she would buy me one but this summer)
any PS2 CD/DVD game
Greenday's "American Idiot" Album
The Calling's "Camino Palmero" Album
brand new house
Lincoln Stretch (Limousine)
Lamborghini Gallardo
Mercedes-Benz SLR McLaren
PS3 (if available)
XBOX 360
32, 42, or 5o-inch plasma TV (good quality)
brand new DVD player
NBA jersey of Tmac or Yao
any DVD movie
around-the-world trip
Harry Potter 1-4 (Hardbound)
brand new computer (w/ brand newmouse, keyboard, etc.)
brand new cellphone (SE K750i or Nokia 6230i)
new set of encyclopedia(s) (World Book)
new polo (red, yellow, or blue)
new leather shoes
new soccer shoes (Nike or Addidas)
another tuxedo or whatever for the prom
new study table
any GBA SP games

Others:

world peace
porno-free internet/world/mind [Yeah!]
maniac-free world [Yeah!]
crime-free world (that includes terrorism)
no more people living in the streets
disease-free world
no more greed/selfishness among people
yes, a very worthy leader for our government
people realizing that "money doesn't matter" (am I right..?)
a very clean environment

Others (for me):

a good grade for MATH
being the best in AP
more thoughts..? (so that I can write more poems and finish my novel)

w8. I'm gonna think for more..?

Grades.

2005-12-17T15:06:00.000+08:00

Here are my grades last period (2nd period):

Filipino --> 87 (1st period: 87)

I don't know why I got a grade of 87 in this subject, b'coz I know I almost failed all my quizzes, even my PT (periodical test).

AP (World History) --> 92 (1st period: 87)

Yeah!! I've finally defeated [you know..?]! (i think..?) Now, I'm doing my best to snatch the place for "Best in AP" in Einstein.

MAPEH (Music, Arts, Physical Education, Health) -->84 (1st period: 86)

I didn't pass some projects and perform some activities. So, Ive got a grade of 84. [laughs]

English --> 90 (1st period: 92)

What can I say?

Math --> 81 (1st period: 87)

Yes, I've failed my Math (passing grade is 85). I hate this subject, b'coz this is my weakness. I also hate the teacher, "Maybel", she's so ****. Buti na lng 87 ako last peiod.

Advanced Statistics --> 87 (1st period: 88)

Dapat bagsak rin ako dito (i think..?), pero salamat kay Mr. Estacio.

Physics --> 89 (1st period: 89)

No comment. [laughs]

Chemistry --> 90 (1st period: 86)

I don't what Mr. Diaz did to our grades. My grades suddenly went up. [laughs again]

Research --> 90 (1st period: 88)

Same as Chemistry. No idea on how I got this grade.

Ideal Girlfriend..?

2005-12-13T14:38:00.000+08:00

Actually and honestly, I don't need an ideal girlfriend right now, b'coz I've found and got her.

It was November 2003, when I first saw her (not in QueSci but a friend of my friend), she was beautiful but I didn't pay much attention to her, b'coz I thought she's not the one for me. Then, on January 2004, my friend told me her name and he said that she was his former classmate from Grade 4 (i think?). I told him that the girl was beautiful but I've still got [sshh..]. So, when the 1st year of highschool ended, I've never recalled the girl again.

June 2004, I'm still sticking to [sshh..] and I still didn't recalled the girl. Until December 2004 (Sophies' Night) approached, there I realized that "the beauty of a girl is not in her face or body, but is in her personality". So, from that day on, I gave up [sshh..] b'coz her personality doesn't suit her face or I did hate her personality or we're not meant to be. Then, that same night (after Sophies' Night), I have a dream about the girl I saw last year. And because of that, I've finally remembered the girl.

January 2005, I've made up my mind, I want to be friends with this girl, if her face can prove her beauty, if her personality suits her outside beauty, if she's the one I'm looking for.

February 2005, we're getting close with each other. Then, it was Valentines Day... I don't know what to do... [boom!] A thought shot in my mind, it made me write a love letter and buy a [...], and it gave me the courage to give the letter and the [...] to HER. After a while, I was filled with joy (euphoric?). She accepted my gifts and even said thanks to me. I was expecting that our relationship as friends would change but I was wrong, our relationship didn't change even a bit. It made more happy, even though the letter contains some.. uhhh.. "you know..?"

As days go by, the two of us became more closer. Then, on August 2005 (not sure?), it turns out that she's the one for me. Unfortunately, she's not in Quesci. Who's she? [laughs]

"She's already taken, She's already taken me."

My Special Girl.

2005-12-10T18:49:00.000+08:00

You're a gift from above,
An angel sent to love,
You're a virgin in my heart,
The maiden of my life.

There's no one better than you are
For you own that kind of love
Every man seek to have
Care with everlasting love.

You're the kind of girl
I call, my Angel
You're the only one
Whom my heart would come.

Every single night
Is a dream of you
Every day of my life
Is dedicated to you.

This you in my life,
You to be called my only love
Thanks to God above
For giving me, You to love.

-- dedicated to "My Special Girl" [ehem..]

I'm getting bored here.

A Fool for You.

2005-12-10T18:25:00.000+08:00

I will always be someone
To be with you when you need me
Any day you want, anything from me
I won't deny offering my life to you.

Demand... and it shall be granted,
Command... and it shall be obeyed,
Wish... and I'll make it come true
For I will always be a fool for you.

I'll turn the raindrop into tears
For those who wanted to break us apart
As I make every dream a reality
For people who are fools like me.

I love you simply because of what you are
I won't ask for anything else
But to love me as I love you
And let me be a fool for you.

-- dedicated to my inspiration

Nice Song?

2005-12-10T12:49:00.000+08:00

Don't Say You Love Me - M2M

Got introduced to you by a friend
You were cute and all that
Baby, you set the trend
Yes, you did, oh
The next thing I know, we're down at the cinema
We're sittin' there, you said you love me
What's that about?

You're movin' too fast; I don't understand you
I'm not ready yet
Baby, I can't pretend
No, I can't
The best I can do is tell you to talk to me
It's possible, eventual
Love will find a way
(Love will find a way)

[Chorus:]
Don't say you love me
You don't even know me
If you really want me
Then give me some time
Don't go there, baby
Not before I'm ready
Don't say your heart's in a hurry
It's not like we're gonna get married
Give me, give me some time

Here's how I play, here's where you stand
Here's what to prove
To get any further than where it's been
I'll make it clear; not gonna tell you twice
Take it slow; you keep pushing me
You're pushing me away
(Pushing me away)

[Repeat chorus]

(Oh, oh, oh)
Na, na, na-na, na, na na
Na, na, na-na, na, na na
(Oh, oh, oh)
Na, na, na-na, na, na na
Na, na, na-na, na, na na

Don't say you love me
You don't even know me, baby

(Baby, don't say you love me)
Don't say you love me
You don't even know me
(Hey, baby)
If you really want me
Then give me some time
(Give me some time)

[Repeat chorus until fade]

A very nice song to me but a garbage to Drazen. [laughs] This song drives him crazy.

Waiting.

2005-12-10T12:18:00.000+08:00

I think, I've just wasted my time in school. I thought classes will resume b'coz last tuesday, wednesday, and yesterday, classes were canceled due to some events, like the "Carol Fest". But again there were no classes; except for Stat. and A.P. (World History); which totally made me bored. On the bright side, no Ms. Belisario, which means no math. During those times, I was just sitting in my chair, talking to Selah about "ehem.." and reading a funny but irritating book entitled "Bakit baliktad magbasa ng libro ang mga Pilipino?".

When we were dismissed or when we knew that we can go home, this stupid guard of Quesci won't let us out even though we're finished. But because of his stupidity he finally gave up for about 15 mins. of arguing. At the same time, we saw Kelvin looking annoyed (badtrip), which I didn't care much.

Right now, I'm doing nothin'. I'm just waiting for someone.

Love: The Unexpected Feeling.

2005-12-09T18:44:00.000+08:00

Love is unpredictable,
It doesn't want to call
But Love will surely fall
To the heart of a able.

Love always knocks
At the door of everyone's heart
Whether you will open or not
Love do always knock.

Love does not just knock once
But Love do give a chance
So that the heart may glance
To the feeling of romance.

Love comes in accident
To broken heart, it will mend
To everyone it will send
The most colorful event.

Loves comes at any time
In every heart, it will climb,
At the top will shine
The Love which is yours and mine.

-- dedicated to my inspiration